yes, i do realise that recently, all my quizzes end up saying that im optimistic and enthusiastic etc,
but the thing is,
school adds a spot of pessimism on me every single day,
today was kind of okay,

i cant believe i had the guts,
the guts to tell mrs see that i dont understand her lesson.

here's what happened:

we got back our math paper,
passed but barely,
wasnt really sad cause i thought i'll fail.
but the thing was,
she didnt explain the answers.
she wrote SOME on the board and told us to like, do it ourselves?

yes, and i took like a period to understand one question.
i teared because i was kind of pissed.

so here goes,
me, jocelyn and alyssa went to the staffroom during break and guess what?
she wasnt there.
so,
we wanted to go down to eat first.

and GUESS what again,
i saw mrs tng,
and i needed to buy my NYAA booklet cause mr pang lost it.
yes, LOST it, okay.
haha.

but mrs tng was talking to someone,
so we waited,
up till there was like 2 more minutes to our break ended,
she FINALLY finished.

and then i asked mrs tng to sell me the NYAA booklet,
it costs SEVEN BUCKS.

oh, then mrs see came running,
when there was like1 more minute to the next period,
and she waved her hands like somebody does when they see a ship when theyre shipwrecked.
funny, (:

and so,
me and jocelyn collected the books we bought for math while alyssa helped me collect my NYAA BOOK! (:

yes, here comes the convo,
FINALLY.

let mrs see be s,
let me be m,
let jocelyn be j.

s: OH IM SO SORRY!
m&j : erm, nevermind nevermind.
s: did you wait long?
m: erm, we didnt go for our break.
s: OH! your poor stomachs!
(glad she knows, haha. but this isnt the first time i skipped break)
m: nevermind.
.
.
.
.
.
.
i dont know why, suddenly we came to this topic.
m: i dont understand the explanation for the common tests at all.
s: what do you mean? you dont understand?
(looks really shocked, sad and disappointed)
m: a bit.
s: a bit understand or a bit dont understand? it makes a WORLD of DIFFERENCE.
(you bet it does)
m: a bit understand.
s: i dont understand. your homework is okay. how do you do it?
m: i ask my family members and practice on my assessment book.
s: (LOOKS REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY DISAPPOINTED)

and jocelyn saved me by telling her that she wants her place back.

phew.

OH YES,
the convo is NOT VERY ACCURATE,
because of course, this BLUR person cant remember the actual words.

L1R5 is 17.
i cant believe it,
last year it was 7 or 8.

its like jump by 10 marks,
where can i go like that?

Your Birthday Predicts You're Logical

Ever since you were born, you've been very practical. You focus on how things are instead of how they should be. You cope well. You love fact and figures. You crunch numbers like a pro, and you're naturally analytical. You don't give into your emotions. You are ruled by your head - not by your heart.

apparently not logical enough,

You Were a Snake

You have a primal energy that drives you to explore the mysteries of life. A nearly immortal soul, you'll live a very long life.

You Would Choose Love

Money may buy a little happiness, but not the happiness of true love. You rather have a true soulmate than a private jet. And while many people may claim they would choose love too... You're one of the few who would really do it.

seriously,
is money THAT important?
i'll earn it for him if i must.
haha. (:

You Are 60% Perfectionist

No one would call you a perfectionist, but you definitely have a side of you that strives to be perfect. Try to see your mistakes as learning experiences, and don't be so hard on yourself when you screw up!